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I hate you. I hate the way you rip my heart apart by hurting her like you do. To me she is everything. I cannot stand that she will not leave you. I cannot fathom the way she puts up with the way you treat her. I hate that cold acceptance that she has never expressed before you. I hate how angry that expression and tone on her face and from her mouth makes me. I hate that my anger at that expression and at you leaks out and starts attacking her. You are the only real point of contention between us. You who I wish she had never met. You who I wish she would break up with. And you who, failing the other listed options, I wish would die. I thin

What are you doing my friend, my friend? What are you doing my friend? The road is hard and long to the end Oh, where are you going my friend? Through the looking glass into a maze so fine to a world very different from yours and mine Where the blood of dreams does turn to flesh and golden crowns like an arrow can fletch The sound can drown your flesh in an armour of grey and nothing is as it seems Where the words of strangers can pull at your core and the screaming trees do cry "no more" The road is hard and long my friend, are you sure you want to leave? Why are you crying so my friend? nothing will be as it seems fro

If I could go back and change it all, take away all the pain. Live without the regrets, live the way I'd wished I had…at the time. I wouldn't. I wouldn't change a single moment of it. I wouldn't take any of it away. Not one second of all the loathing and anguish, not one iota of the hurt. I'd keep the awkward moments, self doubt and loneliness. I'd hide it close to my heart like a cherished memory. Those *are* my cherished memories. They are the basis of me. All these things are what have made me who I am today. Without them I'd be a different person. Less strong, less resilient, less able to survive. Yes, I have wasted my life, my pot

Do you ever just think think think think think something's wrong with this world travel all day in this state of play to get nowhere at all in the end the lights at the station a-flicker and the guy on the train has no shirt and no shoes nobody gives a second glance to the guy with his world in a  bag we're all sucked up in our stuff to care if anything's wrong it's the end of the world so let's party while we can take what you can get fuck you fellow man coz I want it and that's all that matters confusing reality with fantasy my life is better online confusing reality with fantasy my life is better if it's posted onlin

Sweet rapture mine I won't let you disappear even though salvation will never be mine Left to wander in limbo my world of broken flowers a world of darkest regrets cocoon me in dreams of better times and yesteryear Keeping safe a soul of shattered crystal too much to put together too delicate to face the rest of life and fear Sleeping away the day this place will keep me safe never allow this rapture to end lies and fear of no importance I won't let your radiance disappear nor your twisted light leave forever In this wasteland of crimson regrets and scarification the light of your rapture is all I have to hold.

Hi, This is random and it's late but I felt like talking to you and I didn't feel like going online and hoping you'd be there. I asked a friend for your number I'm sorry if you don't want me to know it I promise I'll delete it, if you say so. Oh gosh! I'm sounding all creepy and stalkerish and I just realised you don't even know who I am yet. Fuck. I'm such an idiot. It's Raquel.

I'll never have a boyfriend because I'm too gutless to tell anyone I like them I guess that line explains it all I'm the kid in the corner waiting to fall into the arms of the one I love always knowing that it won't happen anyway today is always the same old story waiting, waiting, waiting for the glory of a moment that you'll notice me but until then I'll keep waiting I'll postpone the decision to tell you a little longer (I'm hoping your feelings for me will grow stronger) In the meantime all I need is acknowledgement that's all anyone ever really wants in any case I hate that feeling that you tend to get when I find out you h

I am a shadow slipping in and out of realms searching for a world without medication to dull the mind a place where people are free to think get me away from this soylent green take me somewhere where things are as they seem a place where emotions don't feel fake and body and mind are in synchronicity the highs may be higher and the lows will be a lot lower without the drugs to dull the world without chemicals to kill the senses slipping into smoke sliding into mist.

If this world were different would I be happier? would fields of green and sky of blue entice me to see all there is to see or do all there is to do? I cannot know that if the world changed it would make a difference at all maybe the change would make everything better or maybe it would be infinitesimally small All I know is that as I change The world seems bigger, brighter, better a place that maybe I would want to live a place that maybe I would want to exist.

with those lips you kissed her and with your hands caressed her face with that body you loved her allowed yourself to be trapped in her embrace did you love her at the time? do you really think you did? I waited so long for you to be mine now I don't think that could ever happen her scent is wound around you sunk into your skin and I can't think of you without seeing her around you now you could never be mine no matter how much I love you regardless of how long I've waited she had become who you are all that you are now for all time you're tainted I'll never be free of you just as you'll never be free of her [maybe this is